Through the Looking Glass

People mourn the loss of a loved one in different ways. Some people scream and cry and withdraw from the world. Others join support groups and find comfort and sharing similar experiences with others. I write about my feelings and curl into classic books.

Since I have been on an Alice kick, I pulled out Through the Looking Glass by Lewis Carroll. Instead of going to Wonderland, this time around Alice goes into the mirror in her room and discovers the world inside. Books are read backwards. The land is like a chess board, and eventually Alice will become a queen. 

A with most classical books I read, I have found some quotes that speak to me in this story. 

• "Why, sometimes I've believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast."
• At the moment, I living what seems the impossible dream of having lost my brother a week and a half ago. It's Thanksgiving and it's hard to remember to be thankful, when a part of your heart is missing. I believe I hear his voice in my head telling me to stop weeping, arguing with me about stupid things and asking me to watch over his wife and kids. I embrace the impossible. 
• "Consider anything, only don't cry!"
• I've cried more tears in the past 2 weeks, than I have cried in my entire life. A song, a a part of a show, or just a memory makes me cry. For a couple days, it was hard to find any enjoyment or hope in life. I am trying to redirect myself and focus on something different. Anything to avoid crying. 
• "Still she haunts me, phantomwise, Alice moving under skies Never seen by waking eyes."
• I don't feel haunted by Alice, but by the spirit of my brother. Mornings are the hardest, because in my dreams he is still here and life makes sense. When I wake up the pain of his loss comes rushing back and my heart breaks all over again. 

Thank you for reading my sad ramblings. What books help you get through sad times? Are their special quotes that express your feelings? 

Happy reading, 

Kristie